doing the right thing
Something you said yesterday made me think.
You said that if we left each other, we would be the only two people to hurt. But if we continued to see each other, we would be dragging a lot more people into this pain.
Every good value we would have learnt since young would probably disapprove of our being together. What about our responsibilities? What about our obligations? What about the commitments we have made? What about the people who rely on us? Do we just stop thinking about ourselves and do what is "right"?
You and I both know that it is never as simple as just that. What is the right thing to do anyway?
I can stop myself from seeing you.
I can stop myself from touching you.
I may even be able to stop myself from thinking about you.
But how do I stop myself from loving you?
I tried. I tried to tell my heart to stop feeling for you. I tried to tell my heart to stop hurting when you are away. But it never works - the heart just never listens to the brain. It beats for you against my will.
What is the right thing to do? Pretend I do not love you? Pretend that everything is fine at home? Pretend that if we did not see each other anymore, that this would all go away? Pretend that you do not exist?
Would that be right?
You said that if we left each other, we would be the only two people to hurt. But if we continued to see each other, we would be dragging a lot more people into this pain.
Every good value we would have learnt since young would probably disapprove of our being together. What about our responsibilities? What about our obligations? What about the commitments we have made? What about the people who rely on us? Do we just stop thinking about ourselves and do what is "right"?
You and I both know that it is never as simple as just that. What is the right thing to do anyway?
I can stop myself from seeing you.
I can stop myself from touching you.
I may even be able to stop myself from thinking about you.
But how do I stop myself from loving you?
I tried. I tried to tell my heart to stop feeling for you. I tried to tell my heart to stop hurting when you are away. But it never works - the heart just never listens to the brain. It beats for you against my will.
What is the right thing to do? Pretend I do not love you? Pretend that everything is fine at home? Pretend that if we did not see each other anymore, that this would all go away? Pretend that you do not exist?
Would that be right?
posted by heartstorm at 7:57:00 AM
6 Comments:
Sometimes, doing what is needed does not necessarily mean you get to do what you feel is right. You already know what you have to do, and that's the first step.
time heals all wounds. take care my friend.
With enough time you can forget about anybody. What started out as unthinkable will eventually end up as inevitable.
But if we continued to see each other, we would be dragging a lot more people into this pain.
Why care too much about these 'a lot more people'? :\ Just focus on your happiness and more importantly, hers.
If you all had read the whole blog, perhaps you all won't feel that way anymore.
But then again who are we to judge?
this is the first time i have stumbled upon your blog. reading it is like deja vu! but take heart, there is always light at the end of the tunnel...
see how mine went from this [check site http://www.livejournal.com/users/restlessjourney] to this [http://myrestlessjourneycontinues.blogspot.com/]
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